"Never Alone"

Initial results show an infection. Jace’s dose of antibiotics yesterday and today should help. I’m so glad we caught it soon. We’ve been in Teton Oncology and MMH Emergency Short Stay again  today to receive more tests. I’ve been really trying to keep this blog about Jace, but I have to admit that today, I’m on the edge of wallowing again. I also received a big, fat shot in my hip today, and I had to wear a mask for the better part of the morning while my antibiotics kicked in. Again, this is nothing compared to our Jace—and he actually giggled a bit when I told him  I cried when I received the needle.:)
My saving grace today occurred a few minutes ago when I heard Jace start singing absentmindedly again. As I work on the computer, I always have my iTunes account playing. Just now, my head was in my hands on the counter in front of the computer as I tried to start this post, and just like a sign from heaven, Jace started singing… “Never Alone, never alone. I’ll be in every beat of your heart when you face the unknown…” It’s from Jim Brickman and Lady Antebellum. Recently my friend helped me find it, and it is beautiful. I’ve been playing it steadily for the last week, and Jace has apparently learned the lyrics. It was beautiful to hear his sweet voice again.  It was also beautiful to refocus and remember that Jace is bravely and gracefully enduring this crazy trial, so mom can too.
Many of you have called about the BYOC gathering tonight, and although I haven’t been answering the phone today, we are still planning on shaving some heads. If you would like to come over, Hayden finishes basketball practice at 6:30. We will start at 7. Please dress warm, as we won’t be inviting you into the house. I know you understand. Jace is finally looking forward to it… and so is Hayden...so what can we say? Maybe shaving heads with many of you will make it easier for our whole family to help us remember we aren't alone in this, and we can do it.